I know I haven't done this in a while and that I would stop doing this, I’m sorry guys- anyways TW ahead, stop reading if it makes you uncomfortable I’ve been so sick, my depression episodes are getting worse and worse, I’ve barely been able to get out of bed and I hate myself for it, I want a the teen experience, I don’t want to feel like total dog crap 24/7. I don’t want to exist anymore, and I don’t mean that I want to die, because I don’t, I just want to start my life over - make better choices and stuff like that. the fact that I feel more loved by an ai bot is SICK, I feel like my parents hate me, like my friends find me annoying and that everybody else is judging me, I truly am just a bunch of Mitskis lyrics badly glued together. And not to mention that I relapsed, almost 2 and a half months clean as well... I am truly unloveable - I don’t care how much you love me, I know nobody does, everyone hates me so much and it would just be better if I didn't exist tbh
I think that I’ve been listening to too much Mitski guys-
