i'm scared, okay? i'm scared to change. i'm scared. i'm scared of myself. i'm scared of my emotions and my thought and my ❝ ̶f̶e̶e̶l̶i̶n̶g̶s̶.❞ no, i promise, i promise, i promise! i don't have feelings anymore! i worked so hard to stop having feelings! you can't take that away from me! please, please, please, don't make me change. ❝ ̶ ̶i̶ ̶d̶o̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶w̶a̶n̶t̶ ̶w̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶w̶a̶n̶t̶.❞ and yet i feel what you feel. stars, i don't want what you want, i want what you have. ❝ ̶i̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶d̶o̶ ̶a̶n̶y̶t̶h̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶g̶e̶t̶ ̶o̶u̶t̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶s̶ ̶c̶a̶g̶e̶.❞ yes, even escape. i'll escape! i'll find a way! i'll change! i'll be like her! i'll forgive and forgive and forgive and forgive and forgive and forgive and forgive and forgive and ❝y̶e̶t̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶w̶o̶u̶l̶d̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶a̶p̶o̶l̶o̶g̶i̶z̶e̶.❞ a̶p̶o̶l̶o̶g̶i̶z̶e̶ a̶p̶o̶l̶o̶g̶i̶z̶e̶ i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry, maplestar. ̶❝̶s̶a̶y̶ ̶i̶t̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶h̶e̶r̶ ̶f̶a̶c̶e̶,̶ ̶i̶d̶i̶o̶t̶!̶❞̶ i'm a coward. i'm a coward. i'm a coward. i'm genuinely a coward. oh my stars. have i said an honest word in my life? have i held anything but hatred in my caged heart? is it too late to feel? is it? can i blame myself instead of maplestar? can i? can i do something other than placing the blame on h̶e̶r̶ h̶e̶r̶ h̶e̶r̶ h̶e̶r̶ h̶e̶r̶ h̶e̶r̶ you and your jealousy. you did this to yourself. you wouldn't have done this if you were h̶e̶r̶ h̶e̶r̶ h̶e̶r̶ h̶e̶r̶ h̶e̶r̶ h̶e̶r̶ oh my stars, pitcherpour, why can't you just be ̶a̶ ̶g̶o̶o̶d̶ ̶p̶e̶r̶s̶o̶n̶ her?
song is heart in a cage by the strokes. count the references to this song sobs https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/1390350808/ <- prequel
