Press a to play the first song, b to play the second song, and c to play the third song. Sorry if you're on mobile I didn't want to code it. ;-; (Songs are listed at the end of the Notes and Credits btw)
Yesterday, it came to my family's attention that we hadn't seen our oldest cat, Smartie (18 years old, older than my oldest sister btw), for a couple days (she was an outside cat). We got worried, because usually she is around a lot in the yard walking by our security cameras or wanting to be let inside for pets and tuna. My sister (I won't say her name) especially got worried because Smartie was her favorite of our cats and loved her the most. To cut to the chase, today my dad found her d3@d outside. We knew she didn't have a lot of time left, but it was so unexpected. Smartie was alive longer than I have been. She's a big part of my childhood, and was a very affectionate and cute cat. I can't even process right now that she's now gone. She's been with us for all of my sibling's lives, including mine, and now I somehow have to learn how to live without her. I feel like a piece of our household has gone away. It frustrates me that right now I'm finding it hard to even fathom this new change. My siblings are crying but somehow I don't really know how I'm feeling. Maybe it'll hit me sometime, but right now my mind seems to be somewhere else. Anyways, sorry for all the venting. In the end, I hope we'll see her again someday, and we all know that we should be grateful for her being in our lives, even if that time is now over. I can't really put too much emotion into this project because, like I said, my mind just seems to be somewhere else right now. But if it ever really registers to me I'll hopefully come back to this project to actually put some heartfelt messages (possibly in the comments if I don't wanna edit this idk). Finally, please please please pray for my family, especially my sister, as we grieve this loss. My sister is absolutely distraught. She felt the same way about Smartie as I did about Oliver (I made a project about his d3@th a while back if you want context). Please pray for us. /nf Anyways, that's all I have to say for now. I hope y'all are having a blessed day, and even if you aren't, remember Jesus loves you. Sorry this was long but also not as heartfelt and hopeful as my other projects about emotional stuff, I just felt like I had to make this now because my family really needs prayers. Ily /p, and just so you know I'm still gonna be inactive, but like I said, I felt like I needed to post this. So, I'll see y'all around. God bless. <3 Edit: I realize it might take a while for me to process my emotions, and I'm learning how to be okay with that. It'll all be figured out someday, even if I don't know how to feel now. I just wanted to say that since I've just really been confused about how I'm feeling and I'm just emotionally burnt out. I just need to give myself time. Anyways, I'm gonna go offline again for now. Stay safe, see y'all. <3 Edit 2: I think the grief is hitting. </3 Songs: 1. Pressed Flowers - Jack Stauber 2. Motion Picture Soundtrack - Radiohead 3. Viator - Jack Stauber Welcome to another episode of ruining songs bc I put them in sad projects and now I'm forever gonna think about the sad thing when I hear the song yay /s
