I feel like I'm having a hard time with myself right now... I've recently been having outbursts much more often and I feel like I haven't improved on my mental health... I feel like it just got worse and that I'm a horrible person for doing that... I recently had an outburst because the boys in my 5th period class won't stop mocking me whenever I'm not in the mood and whenever I tell them to stop, they just laugh at me... even if the teacher told them to stop... I feel like I did nothing but cause harm to others and was sick of myself for everything... HECK! I felt like these horrible things were happening to me again at the age of 13 when I was being severely bullied to the point of these horrible thoughts... I just wish I could forget the whole thing... I'm sorry if this is a lot. I don't care if Scratch takes any of my vents down anymore, I just wanna vent out my frustration with myself because of this... I also want to post this to make it clear that just because I have autism, that doesn't mean I'm always quirky, SOME of y'all need to understand that autism is a mental disability that people like me struggle with everyday.
Princess - Devi Mccallion (suggestive lyrics??? warning)
