If you guys make fun of me, I'm gonna slime y'all out. On september 5th, 2026 at around 5pm I attempted to uhhh ____ myself and ended up in the ER for three days and the mental hospital for seven and missed a butt ton of college work so as soon as I released I was forced to go back to school and act as if nothing happened. Now I have therapy, new meds, new diagnoses... It's all been a lot for me, and my legal guardian is thinking about the possibility of her getting rid of me and putting me into the foster care system because I'm selfish and she's done all she can for me, and yet I do stupid stuff like this. But it wasn't stupid. I had already begged for help; it was the system that failed me. I couldn't even get in contact with any therapist without having to wait a full year. I've been like this since I was 11. It's all I've ever known. I can't talk to my legal guardian; I can't talk to my girlfriend; I can't talk to my friends. I've been so scared of changing, but I'm also scared to stay the way that I am. I want to get better, but I also want to get worse. I need to prove that I need more help than anyone in my family; I've been through a lot. And I hope to recover, even if it is one step at a time. And if you're reading this... thank you for listening to my pain, my voice. I'm glad I'm being heard, even if y'all don't say anything.
New diagnoses coreee: Severe Recurrent MDD Reactive Attachment Disorder (RAD) Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) #fairs
