There is something geninly wrong with me - I feel like my freinds are forgetting about me so I III HAVE to remind them im here - I am losing all of my sympathy for my freinds because I feel like they dont care to - I HAVE gotten foroten before on the CT so I came here to show I am here - I am getting left behind - I get told stupid lies of " I am here for you" when I CLEARLY HAVE TO COME TO YOU HAHA - If you think you are left behind think again because I have tasted TRUE loneliness - I am trying to be my euphoric self but that going away - I can't love healthily... - Its like I NEVER exisited... - I am jealous you guys are happy without me though but I dont wanna be jealous I am trying to be better but I just lost it all... -Wont listen to my boundaries IF I TELL YOU NO THEN NO - I dont wanna crash out on yall bc I could say VERY harsh things... As much as I love you all this is a message to BOTH IRL and ONLINE freinds...
My biggest fear came true... yet it came again
