Hiiiii guyssss!! New song!! I been working on this for about an hour, I will make a radio edit version soon!! The cover art isn't really ''cover art'' cause its just a photo of me :DDD This song is highly personal to me! It's about how I'm a perfectionist and I feel this crushing pressure almost all the time, at school, with my family and friends, and even in my music! At school, my mom works at my school, so people naturally have very high expectations of me. I feel like I can't slip up, even a bit, or else my reputation I slowly built for myself will be ruined. I feel like no one knows me as me but expect as my mom's daughter... I feel as if people see the surface and they don't know me frfr. In all aspects of my life, to grades from friends to music, I feel like I have to be the top and everything has to be perfect. This results in me crying my heart out over a failed formative, crying because I wanted all A's but have a 87 in GA studies, and having a 76 in Spanish all because of a missing syllabus... it seems like things aren't working my way... And music... music is my emotional outlet; the thing I come to when life is too much... but sometimes its the source of my pain. Sometimes, my computer will glitch out and freeze, I can never get that 1 line right, I re-record it millions of times, and can never seem to get it, and there had even been times I h@rm3d myself.... but recently, I know that breaks work. When I feel myself getting thin, I play with my sis for a while, and come back, or just stop and work on it another day. Also, I just people a lot easily only for them hurt me and I lost the ''kid'' Version. I kinda feel like an adult or a older teen who literally works a full time job, but I'm only 13. I hope u like my song <33 Lyrics: [Intro] (yeah. ah) [Chorus] I been doing a whole bunch of things. I lost my innocence. Yet, I'm being recognized for nothing. I feel like i'm being suffocated. Expectations are always high. Alerts running through my mind. Pressure builds, doesn't take it's time. What I gotta go through to protect this image? [Verse 1] Yes, I do this. Yes, I do that. Yes, I mess around. Yes, I say things. Feel like i'm only known as ''her daughter'' I feel trapped in a contest I didn't ask for. Feel like I gotta be a 10/10, or else i'm a failure in skin. And I just wanna be human without the stakes being as high as it is! [Pre] What do I do? I feel like i'm losing it. In all aspects of my life, can't let my guard down. It causes breakdowns. [Chorus] I been doing a whole bunch of things. I lost my innocence. Yet, I'm being recognized for nothing. I feel like i'm being suffocated. Expectations are always high. Alerts running through my mind. Pressure builds, doesn't take it's time. What I gotta go through to protect this image? [Verse 2] I'm not perfect, but I have to be. Life is a performance, people take their seats. Battery is overflowing, this is taking a toll on my soul. And most of the time, I can manage it. But sometimes, thoughts of harm, they creep in. Like intruders breaking into my house. I'm dying, but i'll never say it out loud! [Pre] What do I do? I feel like i'm losing it. In all aspects of my life, can't let my guard down. It causes breakdowns. [Chorus] I been doing a whole bunch of things. I lost my innocence. Yet, I'm being recognized for nothing. I feel like i'm being suffocated. Expectations are always high. Alerts running through my mind. Pressure builds, doesn't take it's time. What I gotta go through to protect this image?
