I hate this stupid brain if mine, all I ever do is just procrastinate. And I never change I keep messing up Over and over, I keep lying ti everyone saying im happy, im not. Im just not, but its all my fault. I keep making wrong choices amd dont do what matters. I hate myself, i hate my stupid autistic and adhd brain, I hate it I hate it. I never do anything right. Even if I try to do good, even if I try to just do good. Its never enough. Its never enough, and to think I stand a chance in the real world if I act like this Im pathetic, a no one. Just some stupid teenager who just seen as a lazy person who doesn't want to do anything. But I wanna do something, but I just cant. Yet ny parents dont see that, they just see me lazy and a failure for not doing things on time and not listening. So thats how I see myself, a pathetic thing who cant take accountable for his failures. I hate myself, I hate my life. I hate how my brain thinks, I hate it.
All because I cant keep my grades up btw. Because I never can keep them up, just like the pathetic POS I am. :' )
