I'm... happy, everything is going well But that's why I'm going insane. I'm happy for the first time since I talked to my bf a month or 2 ago but I don't feel like I should be. I know it's what he would've wanted but I don't want to be happy if it's without him. I know i'll see him again in about 6 years and it's probably miserable to be sad for that long so I should be happy for that time but I don't want to be. And don't worry I'm not going to hurt myself or stop posting and when I do I have a project ready but I'm just... really confused at the time so help if you want, please.
