This is my first venting project bc why not. I have a lot of things I vent about. But this is just a way to vent about my feelings without anyone on the outside saying anything. Please scroll down to see. I am in a big state of depression. And I don't think living is worth it anymore. And I'm not doing this to get attention, like other people do. This is just my true feelings. And I want to be open about it to people who would LISTEN...Carry on. ---> Like I said, the world is ending for me with the news that my GF just told me about... *sighs* She said we couldn't be friends anymore because her mom said to cut ties with me. Because I was a bad influence on her apparently. Well, I am. I'm really just a bad person to everyone, and I feel bad that they have to spend time with me sometimes because they shouldn't suffer around me- I love her so much. I'm the one who confessed first. I didn't care if she didn't like me back. There was just so much hurt in my chest for keeping that secret for a year. So, while we were walking to 2nd period together in 6th grade, it spilled out of my heart unexpectedly, and I was just ashamed by the strange look on her face when I told her. I was broken. Until she came back at my side and whispered 4 words that changed me forever: "I love you too." It shocked me so much as she told me everything on her chest; how she wanted to tell me since 5th grade, interactions with me, how I was her first real friend. - I took it all in, but I didn't realize how much it would affect me; until today. When she said those words to my face; I-- ...I wanted to cry right there on the spot, kneel down on the ground and plead to God to help me. Tears would've rolled down my face if I could cry... I just...Felt lost. Like I had just lost my best friend. Well, I did. She doesn't look me in the eye anymore after that. I bang my head against the lockers with all my might, trying to make the pain at least physical if it wasn't mental; emotional... Just...I don't know what to do now. Please...Just...Don't leave me-!
Oct. 5th, 2026 I just figured out her love was a lie. She only liked me to make me happy. Well, did you get your wish @Moonwatcher36510? Not likely. You did the opposite Fox-heart. I love you B1***
