just to clarify, I don't want this to be the main stuff I make on here. I like to keep things optimistic and joyous! this song makes me think of laying on a grass field with nothing to care about. I wish that could be a reality. it makes me feel safe. (yes, the thumbnail is referencing 'that'. I will not be discussing such topics on here, but I did add that on purpose.)
I feel like i'm only here to feel and carry the pain and sorrow of others. it hurts me. it drains me. I want the fear and sorrow to go away, but it never does. I wont go into detail for personal reasons, but one of my closest pals has been going through.. some interesting things lately and knowing that this could be the end of the road for them really, really hurts me (physically and mentally). I want to help and comfort them, but I have no contact to do so. I feel like I could've stopped it or at least HELPED in some way, but now i feel like it's too late to do anything. I'm a horrible person. I am a freak. I am gross. I am a messed up, disgusting, shameful, waste of a person.
