I’m scared to express my feelings even though I want to because I’m afraid of my feeling being dismissed and I have been since it happened before with somebody I was close with. I hate socializing because it’s just overwhelming to talk to people because they’re gonna think I’m annoying even if I don’t like them either I’m afraid of being introduced to drama because I had a past toxic friend who got me into a lot of it. I almost broke down in church on Sunday and it makes me feel like I’m hopeless if I don’t even feel safe around the people at church. I’ve been called toxic for sharing my opinions and been blamed for hanging out with “ negative people” and I just feel overwhelmed and i get scolded for being “ rude “ if I don’t socialize or try to ignore people and everybody thinks I’m annoying and I’m the reason my sisters left and there’s nobody to related to about having thoughts about what it would be like if my parents weren’t divorced
