>minor tw for self-hating thoughts and caps now playing . . . homesick - cavetown crocuspaw of mossclan , i / me / myself ‘pretty lights roll over the river / my, oh my, the sky’s so much bigger’ >the fizzing sound of static and rapidly switching channels fades out, broken only my clear words through the radio. unfortunately they are not the ones nor the voice you were looking for …well, this certainly isn’t what i expected death to be like. all it is is this strange, detached feeling, and a white expanse. i’m alone. .irrepressibly so. can’t move or feel or see anything but white it’s all just thoughts. sometimes i think there’s a flash of something, but truly? i think I’m just delusional. too many fantasies and dreams and wishes. i’m a foxdung warrior, and certainly wouldn’t be a better medic in a different life. .i stammer and fidgeted and mess up and i try much too hard at it all. might as well run away now. but well, that’s all over, isn’t it? i’m dead. it’s gone. IT’S GONE. i’m not loud, never have been, but now? in this soundless void? i could scream so hard starclan hears me. what if… they didn’t hear me? .is that why i’m here, in this strange purgatory? i’m not comfortable here, but then.. well, I’ve never been much comfortable anywhere. i’m curled in on myself and there’s always been something off with.. me. my body my voice my mists-cursed tail and legs that never seem to work right and only hurt hurt hurt. i’m too quiet. that’s it. they can’t hear me if i’m silent so even in death i will scream. are you listening? cold and unfeeling and glittering in a sky i can no longer access? ARE YOU LISTENING? I AM LOUDER ARE YOU LISTENING? …and yet all there is is pressing silence and deep alone and i know i have done something wrong.. all left to ponder is what is it? ..perhaps i am not enough myself? too nice? is that the issue? I AM LISTENING TELL ME but all i can do is scream and listen to the silence that echos back. … am i even making a sound? >the static rushes back, snippets of song and talk shows and whatever else people listen to on the radio is here now. you find yourself feeling disconnected from the world again
>help him he’s so sad help him he needs hugs and a protection squad /silly >little does bug know he’s just possessed and not dead >oh no >oh yeah also gender arc foreshadowing !! >there’s a meme about that hidden in the project ok?
