NXG is where I feel free. It's where I feel like I can escape from the real world and cope. I feel as if my life has been on a steady decline ever I started online school. I lost contact with friends, stopped seeing others, and some moved away. One of my closest and like final friend moved, Then I moved too. My dog was put down, And it felt like I kept losing things and people that mattered to me. And now I've found out things about my family that have made me question so much of what I thought I knew. My father someone I looked to and admired for most of my life, has had multiple affairs. He gaslighted my mother. Made her seem crazy. Looking back, it also feels as if he has put his job ahead of his family avoiding emotions or damage his action have caused. I don't how I feel about it all I'm just confused and lost I feel as if this decline will continue. All I know is I am disgusted, disappointed, and betrayed. with my father he says he is better than his father a drunk and yet I feel as if he is not. I just question it all.
I don't enjoy sharing my emotions often.
