~I lost you~ I feel like I just lost you, For 3 years you were my friend, And that wonderful friendship just ended, You were my only friend for awhile, And now I’m alone again, I feel like I lost you, girl. When I saw you with your friend, When I said “I’m with no one,”, When I think about it, And even when I don’t, You make me want to cry, Because I was normal again, With friends, You were my normal, And, I feel like my life will never be the same, Will never be normal again. I put on a fake smile, Say it’s okay, But that smile ain’t real, It’s all a cover, ‘Cuz I don’t want to feel, Like you have to take care of me, I want you to be happy, Exercising with your friend, I want to make you think I’m tough, When I actually cry myself to sleep, I try to hid it, Under a plastic smile, That lasts two seconds, Then fades away, Because I want you to know, To make you feel, That I’m ok, Even when I’m not, But maybe I’m just better solo, I’ll always be solo, It’s the only way I know to go, The one I always end up on, Solo. I get angry at you, When I think about it, I shouldn’t, ‘Cuz you’re my friend, But when the only thing I want to do, Is get angry at you, I know something’s wrong, All I want to do it get angry at her, That friend you just let stroll into our friendship, And that friend you now pair up with, Without even glancing at me. I really hope I didn’t just lose you, That we can stay friends, Laugh, run, talk, practice together, Be friends, Because losing you would, is, and will be so hard for me, But I feel like I’m being replaced by her, So, what do I do? What can I do? Your loving friend, with whom you shared three years, ~Emi.
My longest poem!! Just my hurt and sad thoughts right now.... I got replaced by my friend's friend at karate ToT Wrote this Monday and yesterday, after karate. If anyone wants to hear me vent, just comment, I'd like someone to vent to. Anyone know what to do when you're around your friend and the replaced-by-you friend? Like, be cool and chill, smiling and sweet, or just plain and tough? Btw, no, Emi's not my name, just a nickname of the name "Emily". My new pen name is "Emi Cloud", "Cloud" 'cuz I love the sky! You are loved <3 I'm not ok...
