extended title: what having strict and homophobic christian parents does to you (my experience) their expectation: makes you a good kid who doesn't sneak around their parents and doesn't watch stuff when they're not supposed to reality: trains you into sneaking around and not getting caught more often and when I watch stuff when I'm not supposed to i feel like they're listening in or watching me their expectation: you love going to church and worshiping god reality: only likes church 4 seeing my friends their expectation: you love being straight and aren't hiding your sexuality or romantic interest reality: I am lesbian all the way I'm never going back to straight (unless I'm trans to male) and I don't like being afab (assigned female at birth) their expectation: not hiding stuff from them reality: I am so fking paranoid they're gonna find everything I'm hiding from them and I'll be I don't even know what and it makes me so scared for them to have any of my devices or be in my room I've almost cried from it in the past like I'm so scared they'll find my scratch acc or my capcut vids because it has happened b4 their expectation: you don't hide anything and you be your true self around them reality: I am barely my true self around them their expectation: you are never worried around them and you say what you wanna say to them in a good way reality: I'm always scared I'm going to slip up around them and cuss or flip them off or say smtn innapropriate btw I'm ok living with them dw :3 at least they love me people who don't have to deal with some or al of this be so grateful I'm commanding you right now go to your parents and tell them you love them please btw one time I was watching something that wasn't even bad just I feel like they'd look at me weird 4 watching on the TV and I knew they were both outside but I kept looking around paranoid theres a secret camera and my dad is watching me watch it and about to come whoop my ahh (pretty sure it was just a gacha video where they said smtn like gay every once in a while) yea I think that's why I'm still paranoid to this day about something watching me. isn't that fun? XD yea seriously one time I pulled an all nighter and I was ABSOLOUTLEY starving and my dad turned off the light b4 he went to bed and I was so scared smtn was gonna jump out and get me that I stayed in my room for another 2 hours until someone was awake
