Do you guys ever get that feeling that you don't belong anywhere and every group you are in would just do better without you and that most people that r friendly to you are just being sympathetic to ur sad ahh? Like also you realise that most stuff would be better without u and that stuff like that bc even my school pfp's background is a much lighter shade of blue compared to everyone else even tho we all took them on the same bg irl. It also kinda sucks when everyone in your family excluding your Mum (so my Uncle, Brother, and 2 sisters) calls you fat and the ADULTS call you a horrible, disgusting person and ur younger brother says no one liked you in primary and constantly swears at u and tried beating you up (hes weak as muck tho) so u lowkey starve urself and only eat once a day but they still fat shame u and some people at school say ur the fat friend so u just lose all confidence irl
I think I feel a bit better now I wanna go on :P
