ok, i seriously need to get this out of my head. i wanted to hide this for a long time but i have to really talk about this but i really hate my parents everyday, i feel like im just not good enough and that i am just a useless waste to my parents, constantly taking their money and food. i had too many arguments with my dad and i have heard too many scoldings from my mom. everytime i try to do something i reallly want to do, they will always ruin it everytime like imagine that you try to take a quick nap in your room but they want you outside and do nothing for some reason. i really feel like garbage and that im worse then anybody. everyday, ive considered grabbing the nearest thing and choke myself to death as im useless. they want me to be succesful as everybody, they want me to be a strong man but deep down, im just a fragile soul waiting to break any minute. ive had enough of this and i want to leave this house as soon as possible. and all of this that i talked about, im actually serious about this. i dont know what should i even do and at this point, if this keeps continuing, ill just off myself at that point. im sharing this to yall because youre the only people that helped me motivate to make these mods and help me go further in my path. so, thanks :)
and one more thing, i hope yall have a safe and good day. dont worry about me, ill just catch up as soon as possible
