oh, 13 this is probably my last one for a bit I think but yeah i'm back :) lately ... I don't even know .. we might get rid of one of our dogs .. (in fact, he was just resting his head on me a second ago ...) and however much I don't want to get rid of him, the points that were made were unfortunately true and a life without him would .... probably be easier... but I don't want to get rid of him it would be weird without him easier, but weird and I don't like that a part of me knows it should happen but a part of me doesn't anyways I've also been feeling like my friends on here have either left or ... I don't know, they feel too old / mature for me ... I don't even know why they're friends with me still. Like L has been gone for almost half a year ... I miss her so much it hurts. L got banned. It's weird without him. E and M barely come on anymore .... R, C, G, L, A, and practically everyone else seem closer to each other than to me, which always makes me think .. "what did I miss?" it's stupid, I know. but most of the time when they all talk to each other, I don't understand or get what they're trying to say, and I just watch. I don't think they notice, and it honestly doesn't matter. it's not their fault, and besides, why would it matter at all? they all seem smarter and older and more mature than me, like in the times I haven't been on something happened and they all grew but not me ... I know it sounds stupid it is and the friends I hang out with everyday? I love them but they all seem to like the same things as each other and they're all pretty literally everyone and then there's me that one ugly person who's obsessed with k-pop no one understands so I try not to talk about it they don't really care about it anyways, why bother they're all super nice - "how did they become friends with me?" sometimes i feel like i insert myself in the conversation i need to stop doing that i need to be quiet so yeah i don't even know why I'm making this you don't need to know about my problems, lol i'll bet it's annoying anyways bye
