I've been really busy with homework and school projects. I'm not doing well mentally. I almost k***** myself the week before last and last week and 2 days ago. I'm on my limit and I can't take feeling horrible anymore(I'm like Happy Face, a Jagwar Twin music), like I JUST WANT TO FEEL HAPPY IT'S BEEN FIVE YEARS I DON'T FEEL THAT. I promised myself I wouldn’t k*** myself. I don’t know if I can keep that promise, but I’m such a coward that I can’t even do that... Besides that, I'm thinking about leaving Scratch since there are like only two or three people who send me messages first, I always send first I'm tired of this(sorry if this looks like drama).
EDIT:: One day in Science class, I lay my head down on my desk at school and told my friends I was sleepy, but in reality, I was thinking about k****** myself as soon as I got home. I was also almost crying at that moment because I had reached my limit. (I HOPE RINA DON'T SEE THIS PART) EDIT 2:: If I k*** myself will ppl miss me?? EDIT 3:: I WANT TO K*** MYSELF RN EDIT 4:: Omg I'm crying- ty everyone. But I still thinking I'm anoying and a burden 4 everyone EDIT 5:: This time, I probably won't be going on hiatus repeatedly; the reason is the same, but it's also due to a specific event. (My girlfriend didn't even read my vent...)
