Math; B still hard Social studies: D+ :I English: F+ :( Science: A+ yay My mom has not been letting me do my homework :0 I might get grounded just because of my grades but its not my fault. Well math it is but im stupid so... im just happy I got to raise it. My english is low because of homework. I really like science and band. I can play songs on drums and xelophones. (however u spell it) I hate xelos tho. STEM is fun. It helps me make more friends. Perhaps better ones. Idk how I feel. I am a bit happier and I have a lot of motovation to make stuff. I am starting to like school more. I dont like my parents. I bought stuff with my friend at hot topic and my mom said I couldnt get smth cuz it had nyan cat on it. Shes not homo she just likes embarrising me. Idk about grammer rn. Im trying to make better friends irl. Maybe online but you guys are not bad friends I just want to talk to people. Im kind of scared. Social akwardness i guess. oh yeah the emotinal support dog is coolz I like dogs. I like a lot of things I feel like hate me. Overthinking sucks. Might be true idk. If I feel like you like me thats enough. I guess. I dont wamma d1e but I dont wanna be here you know? I wish I had more people who understood. Idk . Im sorry I should stop saying idk it makes me sound stupider then I already am. I dont know how to express my feelings anymore man ;/ like I know people feel worse. I have a house. I have people who act like they like me. My mom kind of cares. I should be happy. But I just feel spoiled every time I think I deserve better. Do you guys think im stupid? Why should I ask that. everyone says the same thing when I ask them something. They ignore it or just say "it gets better." it has been 11 years and it has not been "getting better" ok im going to sleep/ No school tommorow so I can do smth. Or not. idk. wait no sorry.. sorry.
