TWO SIDED COIN

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Orchidpaw srp Where Orhcidpaw decides to leave ( run away) shadowclan and temporary live in windclan. Will be hopping to a different clan next and so on. Will eventually return back home. Also sorry for my aaah writing ok. ------------------ two sided coin of life She couldn't anymore, this life where she was twisting in different directions to find her path had been broken. She didn't understand. She was supposed to be PERFECT, she was ment to be a gift from that field to be brought back here with life and pureness and that was all gone. Drowned into a puddle of her cries. She was nothing but a burning out star , her heart is rotting. Something once innocent now being clawed at by thorns. She was ment to be here for a reason, she WAS. So why did /he/ - WHY WAS SHE NOT GOOD ENOUGH. , why wasn't Poppy ?. On all of them. WHY COULDN'T HE - She was a dove kept in a cage , she was just playing a game of one she is failing and failing at. She was just the lost daughter of a great line of cats. She was just a cat - or was she even one at all? She was merely just a body. She was just stardust in the end. She wanted to cry , she wanted to scream. But she couldn't , she never will. That wouldn't be a good version of her to see. Her heart stung with pain , it's beating rhythm aching. She never asked for this. SHE NEVER ASKED TO BE TAKEN AWAY. SHE- She was born to love , she as born to be someone. Yet she lived to nothing , she lived to be a ghost in some memory. She felt anger , sadness, shame , guilt to many emotions at once. She wanted to rip away her flowers of her pelt and claw them up into small pieces like glass. She - WAS NEVER GOING TO BE SEEN. NEVER NEVER NEVER. She HATED this place . SHE MUST DISPOSED THEM ALL FROM HER MIND. that way- she can just forget. Who needs THEM when she can have - a path. She can be free. So why did this still feel so WRONG. she could feel emotions flowing threw her veins so yet why when she looked into the mirror on the floor , full of water .. she had just a face. A face full lacking of these powerful things. She was ruined. Not by herself no - she will never blame herself for these actions. It was ALL HIM. HIM HIM HIM. WHY CAN'T HE JUST LEFT HER IN THAT FIELD. She felt the warmth climb onto her face , her eyes burning as small tears danced and danced until falling into the pool of water. She - she just wanted love. She just wanted- NORMALITY. was that to hard to ask for ? Is this how she will be from now on. Just a mere cat. She ripped her head away , pressing her paws heavily onto her weeping eyes to get them to stop. The weeping angel sent from above to only have their wings shredded. As her head looked into a different direction she saw something. She saw light , she saw something welcoming to her eyes. She wasn't sure what- but she followed it. This is what you wanted yes? You wanted freedom. You wanted to be free. This Voice which she has never heard sounded like her own. No cat owned this voice to be seen. So she presumed it is only her own. Run. Run run my dear. Freedom is only a step away. Until the light faded as her eyes woke up. Her body restarting for the day- ... The sky outside was bright , her head turning to see her sister poppypaw fast asleep. She knew what to do. She would leave. She wasn't sure for how long. But she knew she wasn't going to come back for some while. I'm sorry Orioleplight. I'm sorry poppypaw. I'm sorry serenitypaw. I'll be back One day. _______ Ok ty for reading about my girl failure Orhcidpaw!! Her story is just starting!! Wowowoow