so... I lost one of my pet jumping spiders today... she was the youngest of the two, and her name was Bridget, or Beebee for a nickname. Honestly, I'm so truly heartbroken. I may have only held her once in her short life, and I regret that. I was scared of dropping her, and now I won't ever get to hold her or care for her again. We don't know how she died, only that we found her like that. I had her for a little less than a year, and yet I got so attached. I had been worrying so much that my older spider, Clementine, would die soon that I didn't expect this death. We may not have had the most special of moments, but I got so used to her presence and greeting her and Clementine in the morning... and I'm scared of not having her there anymore. I'm going to preserve her, but it just won't be the same. I think my favorite memory was naming her, looking at her, and her beautiful chelicerae. I miss her so much, and it's only been a few hours without her. I'm not gonna take a break from Scratch; I would rather do things to keep my brain active, and all the IZ stuff will give my brain some ADHD dopamine. Thanks for reading this to the end, if you have. I'll miss you, Bridget.
