i know i said i was inactive, but this just doesn't seem clear to my friends (the offenders, not innocents!), and I need them to use their eyes and brains. 19/9 AEST. I haven't had a good week today. Because of this, moving houses, detention in school, piano lessons, singing private lessons, yadda yadda. Not even the secret account can make me happy enough. I'm not getting good sleep either because my siblings and mum keep waking me up for the dumbest of reasons e.g. 'I want to hug you' or 'for fun'. I'm tired, but nobody seems to understand that. I'm frustrated at lots of people, and a simple 'sorry' or bad excuse won't make me forgive them as easily as I did before. just... please. leave me alone, especially at school. people are noticing im more down than usual. I'll say it again, and I will be frustrated even more if the offenders don't listen; DON'T ask me if i'm okay. DON'T say sorry over and over. DON'T be too nice to me. DON'T try to make up for what you've done. it sounds like i'm trying to shut them out, right? to be a depressed main character in a movie. but no. it just won't help doing all those things. it's awkward and uncomfortable for me. so just leave the past in the past already. i'll be updating this like a little journal, maybe weekly in the notes and credits. but i probably won't post anything in a while. sorry to the followers who weren't involved. i still love you guys for supporting me, the lazy poster. no art because then my friends will beg me for more. i've already had some people say 'my art is like the mona lisa' AND saying my REAL NAME while trying to make me forgive them. compliments as excuses don't work on me when i'm angry and upset, ok? that should be clear to everyone. so i responded quite coldly to the person trying to make me forgive them. but i forgave them a SECOND time because they didn't read carefully. i'm usually a happy person, yeah yeah, emoticons and sorries and yabba ya. but for now, i'm not. i'm human too. it's ok if you want to share love in the comments. that's fine. i kinda need it. and if you do it without reading this, thanks. if you do it reading this, also thanks. if you don't do it, that's okay. but NO ONE begging for forgiveness i've already given twice. im too angry to forgive someone again. i'm crying like an idiot while i'm writing this. sorry if there's grammar mistakes i'd usually fix. sorry if i'm speaking directly to you meanly. I'm supposed to talk to the offenders when i am doing so. LAST WARNING, DO NOT ASK ME IF I'M OKAY, IF I NEED HELP, ETC. everyone at school does that to me and it's so uncomfortable because it's basically translated to: WHAT'S HAPPENING IN UR PERSONAL LIFE. special thank yous to: @tacocatelectricity for being da best sister :DDDD for being my first friendly follower for being chill about me for being the nicest person for being who she is for the gift for being the best cousin for following some rando kid for supporting me with the MAP & stuff and to all my other followers. thanks for bothering to support someone like me despite me not posting a lot. i am aware that not all of you are reading this, but thanks. love y'all. really. i'm just in a unhappy mood
