TW for serious topics (Thank you for all the comfort btw I really appreciate it, its just idk how to respond) Everything sucks really badly lately, I mean its always hard for me to put into words what bothers me, but like I feel lonely a lot, on pixilart hardly anyone talks to me, irl things are alright I suppose but I still feel excluded a lot because of what my stupid parents did. They made it so I can't see half of me friends at all, and I hate it. Because now I'm not nearly as close with most of my friends because we can never hang out. And it hurts to hear about every hangout that I might never be a part of. I've been in a downward spiral for a good while now, I usually just put on a smile and play it off because its always so hard to open up irl. I never truly took care of some of my problems in the past and well now they're coming back A lot worse now that I'm over my fear of death. The least of my problems though something that still makes me a bit upset ig, is that I didn't make it into the cast list for the play. All my friends did, except me. I guess i really should have expected that, I never really was a good actor. But I guess I just got too hopeful for once. I lost my 6 months of being clean recently, everything just sucks really bad If I keep going like this i'll probably end up like Travis or Ivan from bad things Or Broken spawn Or Sayori I think you get the point.
If you know me irl please don't mention this. And don't comment here either, I don't mean this to be rude I just can''t deal with talking to anyone I know irl right now. I used Travis to represent myself in the thing I'm kinda bad at venting out stuff Hopefully this doesn't end up like my pixilart vents
