By now every one of my followers knows how long ive been inactive, ive been off and on animating since march, and i just dont think i can continue, for now anyways. For those of you who read this all the way through, i appreciate it, and thank you. I have so many things going on in my life, that scratch and yt aren't as much a priority anymore. While, yes, most of you will argue that im just being dramatic, but put yourself in my shoes and then you'll see what i mean. I have cross country, friends, family, school, and other things to prioritize. I know if i really wanted to I could keep going, but I mean look at this art, i've never really been good at it but you can tell its deteriorated and you can tell I haven't animated in a while. In my hiatus, I went backpacking 15 miles, started cross country for the FIRST season, and got a 22:31 5k time for my FIRST cross country race. On top of my extracurriculars, i've also been trying to focus on my friends and family more, be off devices, and be as productive as I can, and to be honest, animating kind of feels like a disease, like i can make other people happy, other people not, but more often than not I don't feel happy about what I make. I show my family and they say thats so cool and go back to the next thing. With cross country, that is physical and im not sitting at a desk all day staring at a screen making a character move. Point is, I just cant keep doing this anymore. I'm done with animating for now, it just doesn't seem like something I want/need to do anymore. And for you all reading this, heres some words of advice. If you're happy doing it, do it. If you're not, than you should be wondering why you did it in the first place. If you know it wont make you happy, don't do it. Running (especially with my friends ive made on my team) makes ME happy. And I keep chasing goals, its physical, and I just love the sport. If you don't enjoy animation, or you're like me and you've been doing it for 2+ years and now the fun of it is gone, I highly recommend finding something you know you'll love, not something you'll waste your time on.
Call me dramatic, call me an idiot, call me whatever you want. This is what i feel I have to do to make myself happy and at peace, and mentally healthy. Thanks to all for sticking around, even if content was getting slow. I respect all of you. Yes, I WILL finish the M.A.P, yes, I will come back and animate occasionally, but for the most part this account is now inactive. I will come and visit the site when I have the time, but I want to focus on school, my social life, sports, etc more than I do scratch. Thanks to all who understand, all the people who encouraged me, all the people who doubted me, and more. It has shaped me into the person I am today and I thank you for that. I will be posting a project soon on unfinished projects, sooner rather than later. peace :)
