a dry leaf. check. blueberry juice. check. an almost still heart. check. everything she needed for a letter of death she could almost feel it now, the stilling of her usually racing heart fate pulling and tugging on the strings of life as if they had nothing to lose she did she had everything to lose her life, to be specific was dwindling as fast as a rabbit fled claws she didn't want to feel like the rabbit, but she was afraid she couldn't be the claws either, for she found herself to be too sweet, to kind to strike harm into someone's heart. maybe that was why she was always so lenient with the code perhaps it had been her downfall. but why should someone judge another purely based on their culture, values and beliefs? it was idiocy. it was clear maplestar didn't care for if you followed starclan or the dark forest or none at all. they were all cats after all, with one goal in mind to get through the day live. but that wasn't why she was writing a letter, no. she had a request. one that she could consider as her last one her last 'words' per say. a letter, to the leader of mossclan. and it went like: 'Sunspiderstar, I apologize for any inconvience, suffering, or loss I might've caused. I don't know if I did, I just thought it would be good to say before we started. I am dead. Or will be by the time you read this, because bless his heart, Buggs is not a fast turtle. I only have one simple request. if you could bury my body in mossclan, in the camp, where all my fallen clanmates are, it would be the greatest honor of all. for it should be me laying there, in the ground, not them. I am laying in a field of wildflowers, near the border of mossclan and flurryclan. the unity cerus on my back will go to Fishmothfrolic, should they take it. my deepest thanks and gratitude. I will watch over from starclan. love, maplestar' her paws were shaking, though the dizziness of her head almost canceled it out. how could one feel so much pain when they feel so numb? how could one feel so much love when their heart was broken? all questions that maplestar had yet to find answers for she hoped one day she could. but for now, she would rest, and watch the last sunset of her life with grateful eyes. she glanced to Buggs, his usually grumpy eyes almost sad as she gave him the leaf, careful not to smear the juice. 'be careful love.' she whispered, her first words in a long time. 'take Lola and Bunny with you, hm? and come back when you're done.' she nudged them off, the three trekking forward. she knew that they would be back before she died she wanted them at her side after all. at her side when she took her last breath and her heart beat for the last time for when she died. . . . . the death. apologies. thank yous.
