cough cough uh venting time I have this weird sudden depression over the last few days. I don't eat or drink I sleep too much, yet not enough all the days are so slow and fast at the same time, melding together into one existence untouched by the grace of time and motion I disassociate and zone out and everything just passes by me like a speeding car from the perspective of a piece of wilted grass growing too close to the asphalt noise has become a constant, beating rain echoing and puddling in the back of my head and never reaching the front, eventually evaporating and never returning when I stare at the dark I see things stare back at me, shooting and piercing my eyes with the arrows that are their gentle yet terrifying, poison-tipped gazes I don't want to do anything anymore I put minimal effort into whatever I do in hopes of getting it over with as fast as possible, only for my wandering mind to spend the rest of the given time away from this physical world numb to hope numb to joy numb to anger numb I don't know what caused it I just know that it's here and it's happening to me and I don't know what to do and I don't want to be a burden
jesus christ im so cringe ugh cornball lol points at self and laughs dang is that freestyle poetry why is there so much figurative language im frying
