Hi it’s been a good while since I’ve made a project been about 2 months and if anyone is wondering where I’ve been this for those people and to just get some stuff off my chest. I’m not really a huge venting type I never cared for pity it made me feel weak so I never really talk to anyone about myself except people online, because they don’t really know me if yk what I mean in any way. Which is mostly why I keep my account private to people ik irl. Just to jump straight into it I have a huge savior complex that I have been struggling with for years, none of my friends know and all I wanna do is help even if it tears me party because I believe I can hop back faster that anyone else and I rather take the pain for them. For a while someone ik has been dealing with… bad thoughts lets say and due to my role in there life I tore up my own mental health trying to help them. I live this person very much and I want them to be able to talk and vent to me without them worrying about me. For some time they were doing great but the have gotten worse and are planning to do online and I’m trying to be a good partner and comfort them through this, but from my experience online school never helped and I feel bad about the situation, I voiced these concerns but in the end they mean nothing it is there decision to make. Besides that since school has started up again I’ve had lots of work to do and not much time to do things for myself. When I get home I usually doom scroll or talk or help my friends with stuff they would like to do. I haven’t been active on scratch besides checking notifications every once in a while due to my lack of motivation and own mental health, I feel like my meditation isn’t working as well anymore and I need to get over this savior complex before it tears me up, and I have no clue how.
I’ll check notifications at least once a day then that is all, all series have been put to a freeze and are not coming out any time soon. I love all the support you guys give on any projects and instead of helping others I need to reflect and try to take care of myself Link tree is inside, has some work on devaintart I didn’t get to posting here Bye
