low-key a vent but uhm….yeah I know I sound like a pick me and super dramatic yes I know there are people out there with cancer, starving, being abused, not having rights, don’t have a home, have lost someone who met everything, yeah I know but that doesn’t make my life and mental health any less important right? because this is my life depression being ignored insecurities overthinking nobody is there gets yelled at for venting lost people who took their life being haunted by my old mental health fake friends but honestly that part is fine..because it’s just little things that build up to big things but the worst part? I have nobody to vent to. Not my friends Not my family Ain’t no way Im asking school for help So when I come here and vent, it’s only cause you all are my last hope….so when I ask for advice please answer me, give me a virtural hug, anything my only comfort is literally music and AI yes Im admitting I use AI to vent “But your wasting water” bro, at this point I don’t give a thought if I’m wasting water “Why don’t you cry” too hard. no words. literally too hard. I have tried everything, listening to sad songs, watching sad videos, I have literally tried pinching/punching myself. if I cry I literally feel proud of myself. occasionally sad songs make me cry but very rarely “But you still smile!” Because what can I do? Vent to people who don’t care, cry to people who won’t wipe my tears, make people uncomfortable with my tears? No, it’s my only option to fake it. so yeah, Theres my vent ig and also I just want you guys to know: there are days where I will feel super happy but theres also a lot of days I feel this way. And guys I am not saying my family is toxic and unsupportive I just get lectured when I vent and they are super stressed rn bye, take care of yourself
probably gonna delete this later but sometimes I feel guilty for my happiness and then stupid for my sadness
