Space, arrow keys, click. Content warning for serious mental health topics below. Hey. My Scratch account was made almost 2 years ago when I was in 5th grade. I originally made it to interact with the Eternal Apprentice Fandom, since none of my IRL friends never listened to me go on my endless hyperfixation rambles. I wanted my thoughts to be heard about a niche comic that I couldn't find much about in other places of the vast sea of the internet. So I begged my mom to make me a Scratch account, without telling her that it was basically only for social media reasons and started making theories and other content for EA. When it was canceled, I moved to the next big webcomic at the time, Switched Fates. I never came to love it as much as I loved Eternal Apprentice, but it could keep me entertained enough at the time. But when I made the switch from EA to SF was when sixth grade started, which is where the lack of Eternal Apprentice and friends in my life started taking a toll on me. I started to realize, crap, I'm depressed. A lot of social things that I won't go into started happening. I was getting bullied, and was in a deep depression.My grades were reaching a low point that I haven't gotten to before. My parents were getting more and more mad at me every day, and I had just figured out I was trans nonbinary. The only thing that made me feel a little better about myself was music. I would listen to Eternal Apprentice Theme Songs 5 on loop. Scratch and its community mean so, so much to me. I'm leaving because there's nothing left here for me. I'm not sure if you guys know, but I've gotten way better at animating. I've been writing a new comic that's completely traditional and I'm on page 63. I've gotten around to feeling way better about myself. I've gotten to learn about myself. I've gotten to change and grow. And part of that change is to leave Scratch. I'll come back here for Destiny chapters and will check for Bound updates every month. But I'm not gonna do anything else on this platform. It's hard enough to sensor myself around smaller kids off the internet. I don't want to limit my speech. I don't want to sensor my own creative passion projects. I don't want to be half of a human. I am my own person I can choose how to present myself and how I am. I can choose my future, even if I am only 13. It was a nice long run. I enjoyed every second of it. I want to get around to loving myself as I used to. I want to heal myself. So I guess that's why I'm leaving. But if I know the one person who constantly sees my content, it's probably not the last you'll see of me.
