Instructions: Do not use, steal, trace, etc. CONTROLS: Click "A" for art process, right key to progress, and left key to go behind. Anddd "B" to hide the process :D :'-( mostly a vent piece and I got WAY too engrossed and made it slightly coded 0_0 I'm actually proud of the multimedia section of this - it's my first time actually doing that, and I didn't even plan to! Just came out of my head :) Song: Find Mii - Dark Room theme Btw if you have a 3Ds and have gotten to the part two of Find Mii, YOU'RE THE GOAT!!! :] I'm still trying to finish part two not because it's difficult, but because I want to savor that childhood moment for longer. i've been playing it since I was 7; I don't want to finish it yet... Come to think of it, it's been crazy that I've had a 3ds for ten years A lot of this is very ADHD ramble xD please bare with me!
Notes and Credits: Hi!!! Yes! Hello!!! I'm alive ... finally, after 3 months. I had initially meant to post this back in June. as I was feeling very very off in June. Not in a bad way, just aaughhh ewuuehghgegrghhh I had really fun odd interactions. with people. in my life and out. A lot has happened this summer, and yet one could also say it was awfully uneventful. We did things but I also achieved less than I hoped, namely me getting a job. Wow, I was planning to get a job LAST summer and I still haven't, because I haven't really done much yet. This was my last summer prior to adulthood. Kinda insane I started this acc during my first year of hs, and now I'll be graduating... anyway, that's not the point. I drew this a WHILEEEE ago; I was overthinking like INSANE about something and haha my art is usually very unfinished and i don't 100% lock in unless I'm sad or rushed. I still think about the thing that caused my overthinking now, a LOT, legit top ten embarrassing moments that I will replay in my mind forever. Trust. The intention for this project was to be cryptic. The art wasn't supposed to be as colourful, either. I had a better idea for the desc when I was morbidly anxious back then - but now I just feel slightly embarrassed less at the incident, but more at myself for still even thinking about it to begin with! Genuinely I deserve to be in a cringe comp I CANNOT keep my cool I'm so chalant. absolute cornball chudfest can you believe I'M my #1 source of secondhand embarrassment??? Alas I am a yapper and get very visibly nervous when i'm nervous. It's so sad cuz I wanna be seen as cool and nonchalant and doesn't react with panic but... arghghg so hard >_< I wish I could react calmly in high pressure scenarios. I had so many dreams, so many ways I could speak and act better. But alas, I cannot bring these dreams to life, and in reality I'm the "socially anxious" stereotype, the awkward young girl who cannot form a coherent intellectual sentence. I speak decently through text, but when I open my mouth, do I stutter. . . . That aside, I don't really have a proper description for what this piece is about. I guess you could say it's just the feeling of intense desire, maybe? but with a tinge of sadness. I don't know if it's visible, but the hands are supposed to be grasping. For the pillow. For someone The funny floating hands in the back I don't know. Maybe it could represent what's going on in the head. grasping at her. Maybe it's the symbol of those horrid, intrusive thoughts sprawling within her mind, taking control of her until there's nothing left but the memory. No matter how many times she replays it, it will always be the same, and the other end will always see her like an anxious fool, even if she dreamt so hard about NOT being seen that way. But also it could mean reality always coming back, always a sign that she'll wake up eventually and hell (reality) will haunt her like always. Hence why the hands look all "evil" or whatever the girl in the image is SUPPOSED to be me but I can't really say it is as it does not resemble me >_< literally looks browner in the wip hello??? For some reason, my colours are always off from the character. Back in early 2024, I tried to draw Luka from Alien Stage but his hair was so orange instead of pale blonde from the rendering >_< the curse of being the artist who experiments with colours... you always deviate from the source!!! Fun fact, the spinning painting (don't ask me why it's doing that, ask the painting!) is from an actual museum I visited back in June - I'll post what I saw there later! :) (BELIEVE ME I actually will, I need to save my dying space.) Also thank you for those who are sticking around :)) I would leave this site, as I feel too overgrown to stay here and it feels more childish for someone of my age to do the things I do, but I'm not the sort of person to leave something so suddenly after years of time. and it feels nice having people that remember me and interact with me and stuff. Partially i miss last year due to some things but i also hated 2025. blarhgh anyway, have a nice day folks who see this take care :D press K for no reason, if you dare. (I'm b o r e d ok-)
