Tw: abuse if substance, mentions of attempts, and toxic british men. Ok now i hate rambling n stuff but im back. Now my disappearance was caused by a plethora of things, divorce, breakups, attepts, alot of things hindering me from coming back onto an online space. So here i am going to tell my story. It started in january, i met blay in january. We did stuff and i got osbessive over him. He was toxic and i was co dependent over him. He used me for many things. I bled for him, cried for him, and almost di3d for him. He told me to commit, i tried. I got addicted to smoking, acid, and alcoh0l. He helped me with obtaining said things. It ended with me in the mental hospital and in patient rehab. I got out two weeks later and tried to rejoin society. Im still not over him and i still cry constantly over him. But im alive. My parents divorced. I got into legal trouble (a lot) and almost dropped out of school. I now have help. Im now ok.
CONT. God i wrote the first one when i was on smthn i swear. Anyways continueing my story, after i had gotten out i had tried to reach out to him again, only for him to love bomb me, do me once more and then leave me again, this time for another person. Theyr together still actually, a lot of thibgs transpired in my relationship with blay, a lot of scary thing. I never once thought id bl*ed so much over a person yet here i am. Im still recovering from my dr*g addiction and im over my alco**l addiction. But because of the love bombing and constant bangin. Im now ruined completly. So thank you blaylock oliver berlin for making my life a living h*ll
