Hi everyone, Lilus here. To start things off, I want to apologise (who saw that coming? /j) I don't want to hide behind my friend and defenders because I know that what I did was incredibly wrong. For those who didn't know or are confused, I am in fact Blossom, Massive lore drop. Anyways, Blob (ILY) already pretty much spilled everything but I wanted to not only give my side of the story, but apologise for the things I did when I was younger. First off: Tracing Being an immature teenager was really something, and being anxious certainly didn't help my case. I despised my art style, so what did my undeveloped brain come up with? Right, tracing. Looking back at my younger self, I'm disappointed and embarrassed at how I acted, God forbid 13 year old me thought I could get away with that. Seriously, just thinking about this makes me cringe with shame. Your never going to improve with tracing, pick up a pencil and watch tutorials, it gets easier as time passes. Next up, MAP ideas: Maybe it was my ADHD or just genuine impulsiveness, but I lacked creativity to make my own MAP ideas, being a hyper 13 year old, My brain just couldn't stop flooding my brain with thoughts. I was so fixated on something that I needed to make it instantly, completely out of impulsiveness. Again, looking back at this, I cringed so hard, remembering all those MAP ideas that lacked creativity and design, my idea for a MAP was literally just, 'throw some Google refs here, grab this song from this MAP, snatch a traced TN, rush script annnnnd post' sometimes the MAP didn't even make sense, but well, it was a stupid coping method I used when overwhelmed with thoughts and anxiety, it helped me anchor myself. MAP invites: I was CONSTANTLY spam inviting people to my MAP's, keep in mind, I would have one out almost every day, hello overzealous main character kid. Due to this, I almost always spammed people with invites, and because of that, people got mad at me, even looking back, I genuinely can't believe how inconsiderate of me that was. Anyways, This is pretty awkward for me to say and I know it will take a while to earn back your trust, but I want everyone to know that I've given up tracing and all my art on @xXLilusXx is completely original, (if you don't believe me, run it through an AI thingy or whatever idk what its called-) As for my MAP ideas, they are ALL my own. As I have learned from past mistakes and know that in fact, the truth WILL always come out in the end. But yeah, I swear, every single MAP call, complete or not on @xXLilusXx is completely my own creativity. Scratch is genuinely a cool place (despite the unnecessary bans) and I definitely want to stay and keep making MAP's and socialising, its definitely helped me a lot with my attendance this year. Though its not the most sincere apology in the world, I hope that you all take a moment just to read it. I'm not going to make excuses because I know my younger self did a lot, and I mean a LOT of bad things. Luckily, I think I've matured enough to finally realise my mistakes and learn from them.
I know I'm not perfect, and I will probably make mistakes again, but now that this is all out, I don't have to worry about going on scratch and feeling my chest tighten with guilt every time someone talks about me. Seriously, I feel way better now that this is out in the open and I really hope that I can keep being someone you look up to, I really am sorry and if I could go back, I would, I don't want to be known as Blossom, because that was the past, and it hurt many people I cared about. Just call me Lilus<3 Ps: thanks so much to the following! @JJPinger - Dude I'm so freaking sorry, your heck smart and I myself was genuinely astonished by how quickly you knew I was Blossom, I hope you can forgive me for the drama I pulled you into. @WonderwaIIs - Don't blame yourself at all, again, your one of the first who had suspicions, I should never have denied it, if I hadn't, I could have avoided all this conflict, but it is what it is, your an awesome person<3 @Forestgames - Thank you for the support, you're one of my closest friends on this website and I'm so happy that your finally getting the followers you deserve. @Kaypaws - I would hug you if I could, Im grateful for everything, you stuck by me through the entire drama and were smart enough to stay out of it while also giving your opinions. @EvieTheDestroyer - Your comment made my day, ILY<3 You're an awesome friend and I appreciate your support. @-PebblePaws - Anytime you talk to me, I feel better, your such a forgiving person and I look up to you, not the other way around, seriously, keep being the person you are<3 Anyways, this is it for now, I don't want this drama to hurt any more people, I hope everyone can realise, just for a second that the only reason I denied being blossom was so this drama wouldn't start again, but know I'm glad it did, I admire you all and I promise, I will try my hardest to earn back your trust<3 Lilus signing off ^^
