Basically i hate my life. I feel like i can never do anything right. I messed up asking out my crush who only likes me as a friend, and im not even sure they like me even as a friend and i feel really awkward around them since i still like them, i messed up a friendship, my mom is practically always mad at me, my dad barely ever talks to me, I hate the way i look and when i try to wear clothes that i feel make me look better, my mom says to change, cause she thinks it's too inappropriate. And my hair never looks good no matter what i try to do with it, the only way i like my hair is when it is straightened and i cant do that very often b/c my mom says it will ruin my hair. People are jerks and there are people who seem nice but i cant tell if they're being real or not. And there's this girl who hates me because I supposedly abused one of her friends when i didn't. And im in highschool, meaning the classes are hard, and i keep being late and getting lunch detentions, and there's this boy who keeps harassing me. And the things that used to give me comfort i can't exactly do anymore because my mom took my games and headphones away so i can't listen to music. Drawing is not always very calming for me since i am a perfectionist, and i feel like I'm not good at it or i mess up too much. So yea I don't really like my life right now, to the point where i don't wanna deal with life or people anymore.
