SKINLESS ?

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SKINLESS ??? ??? A short ARG. You could be the perfect shade of yellow, but you cannot force someone to like yellow if they prefer blue. It was a normal day just collecting wood, when I first saw her log on to the Minecraft world. Maybe it was an accident, or maybe it was fate. But I knew one thing for sure. She was beautiful. The way her orange hair was short, but long enough to reach her shoulders. The way she smelled faint of orange. Even just her fashion sense. Everything about her was perfect. I just couldn’t help it. I had to watch her. But I don’t know.. something about her.. I just couldn’t approach her. I was to ugly, she’d see me and gag. I know it. I watched her everyday, leaving secret things for her in her little wood house by the village. One day she was curious about the gifts and went out looking in the village. She searched the houses , but as she is she didn’t loot any of them. She talked to the villagers and traded, so it took her some time to get from house to house. She’s so perfect, and caring. That’s exactly why she can’t see me as this. I’m hideous. HIDEOUS. My stupid yellow skin and hair, and glasses. Who would even love me? I wandered around the village, sneaking into houses until I found one she hadn’t searched yet. I slowly opened the door to see a lifeless villager , it looked deflated and its eyes scooped out. Just its skin laid there. I heard her approaching so I panicked. And now I was wearing skin that wasn’t mine. It was so weird, like if wearing an oversized scratchy soaking wet sweater She came inside, and looked around and quickly left as she did with every other house. After she left, I came outside. But, I had such a weird feeling . I felt a deep sense of paranoia. I ran off to a cave so she couldn’t see me like this. My skin burned so bad. I ripped the skin off as quickly as I could. It hurt badly. Like ripping off a bad bandage . Parts of my skin were ripped off. Blood trickled down my back. It was hurting so bad. I couldn’t do it again. But then I remembered the feeling of being with her. Next to her… as she looked at me. I felt seen, noticed. It was so hard to choose. Would she even love me? It’s fine. I guess love is pain. As long as I can see her. The next day, she logged on. I was snooping through her chest as she mined . I then found a book and quill. My heart raced as I quickly opened it. It was about someone. I read excitedly, just speeding through it.. ‘Watches’… ‘Signs’ … ‘Love’ … ‘HER’ Was it about me? I just know it. I need to let her know.. but I couldn’t be so sure.. I needed to find a way to approach her. Without feeling that… Feeling. Or maybe learn more? And actually see if it was me? No. She won’t be here forever. I knew what I had to do. I went back to the skin. I told myself it would just be until I knew she liked me. Until it wasn’t. Until it was every day. It hurts, but love is pain, right? After a week.. I really couldn’t take it anymore. I had forgotten to take the skin off. My skin I̺̮̳̳̱͆̄̒ͣ̀t̯̏ͮc̨̗̙͇h̴͇͎̲͎ẽ̯͙̰͓̯ͫ͂d̮̠̤̗͇ͭͨ̓. I went back to the cave and I tried to take off the skin. It wouldn’t come off. No matter how hard I pulled at it. I sighed, maybe I could visit her one more time. Get just one last bit of what she thinks. I opened the book out of curiosity. ‘I saw him today I love him so-‘ Wait, no that’s not right. Him? I swear I saw ‘she’? I swear she liked a girl. I flipped pages back. ‘She was watching me again. The yellow villager. I’m scared, what if she attacks me?’ Oh. That’s what I saw. I put the book back into the chest and stared blankly at the wall. Soon, I heard her coming back. I ran out through a hole in the wall from a creeper, out of pure anger and broke down in the middle of a grass plain, not even being able to make it back to the cave. I couldn’t take it. This stupid skin!!!! SHE NEVER EVEN LIKED ME. I'M SO FULL OF MYSELF. I ripped the skin off violently, I was blinded by rage and pain. I ripped it all off. It didn’t matter to me anymore. I slowly opened my eyes to stare at my hands. — What? It was red. Meat red. My skin was gone. All gone. The adrenaline slowly went away and then I felt it. The pain hit me like a flash. I curled up in pain. Screaming silently. She can’t see me like this. It hurt so bad, SO bad. Like putting salt on a wound with ants eating the salt. And then, like clockwork. My flesh I̺̮̳̳̱͆̄̒ͣ̀t̯̏ͮc̨̗̙͇h̴͇͎̲͎ẽ̯͙̰͓̯ͫ͂d̮̠̤̗͇ͭͨ̓. SKINLESS