tw for self blaming and horrible motherxson relationship , stay safe :] — sailfishpaw sat by the edge of the beach, gazing out at the vast expanse of water, his turquoise eyes glimmering in the sunset. the long days of training by squirrelstar's side always left river tired and drained, and often it thought about how his mother. the same mother who had fought with riv when it was merely a kit. the same mother who claimed to love him and his siblings. the same mother river....missed? that was not the right word for it. he did not miss it's mother, not at all, riv pined for her. for her to lick him between the ears and comfort riv and say that she was proud of it. that would realistically never happen. he ruined it. it was his fault. sailfishpaw, still a kit at the time, lashed out and ruined it. all. rivers. fault. it's mother did nothing to him, and yet riv was an ungrateful fish-brain. maybe if he was better, if riv had no bite to it's words.. maybe he would still have her? maybe she would still love river, still care for him, still lick him between the ears and tell it how proud she was of him. but that wouldn't happen anytime soon. river would try hard, he /would/ make her proud. but in the meantime...all he could do was be sorry. I'm sorry mom.
song: i’m sorry mom by marino sailfish owned by me and marlinmassacre owned by @_-Lillies-_ aggh very short but the point has been gotten across.
