some stuff has been happening in my life, for better and for worse. -announcements: 1 - for every single weekend this month, im going to be away and traveling. weekends hold most of the time where i get payments, MAP parts, and other personal projects done, so expect progress on those to be slowed and even stopped completely until next month (hopefully!) i also cannot bring my device with me so i cant draw during those times. if im late on a due date of a MAP part, i will try to get it done once i come back yet feel free to drop me!! i dont mind. 2 - since my school has started and im already pretty behind after ive gotten really sick, my animation time will also be eaten away. basically the above announcement yay and a little update, feel free to skip as its bit of a vent my mental health isnt doing very good. a big thing that has happened kinda stripped me emotionally and ive felt extremely down. its still going on too so. im always trying to find ways to relieve stress but im lacking in motivation for any sort of vent. sometimes i resort to things im not proud of and that im trying to control (so please forgive me if im ever rude towards you) everything is crumbling and i feel like im the one whos responsible for building it up again. i always feel responsible for everything. sorry for anything. it hurts when i do something nice only for people to hate me for it. for people to just run all over me, expecting everything yet giving nothing in return. its happened so many times in the past, and im starting to reach a breaking point. i just want to be loved sometimes, too. and i am. but sometimes, i dont feel like that. my feelings are weird. 居場所欲しいな。
