um WHY DOES THIS HAVE VIEWS THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO FLOP UH UHU HU HI? (HUGE TW FOR umm..nono touches?) (also tw for cringe bc i just ranted out all my feelings bleh maybe dont read this or do i dont care but its embarrassing why am i sharing this i will prob delete it soon LOLLL HAHAHAH IM SO FUNNY help) if ur confused i was wearing my jax hoodie thats why i have his fit anyways um this was gonna be an animation but im exhuasted and lazy so its just a vent so the main thing that i wanna vent about i was at the arcade n i was tryna focus but my dad kept tryna get my attention and i finally just gave up bc he was getting mad at me so i went over and did what he asked and he said "are you really gonna give me an attitude over this??" and i snapped at him and yelled a little and told him all he does is yell at me no matter what i do and he said smth like "im yelling bc i know whats gonna happen is ur gonna do that and then run out of points and then beg and cry for me to get u more im not gonna do that ur so needy blah blah" so i just gave up and had a verbal shutdown (which shocked me bc i hadnt done that for a long time..since like atleast february) and i finally finished and he tried to act all proud of me but i just ignored him and went to the bathroom and idk i thought it was a panic attack but i think it was more of an anxiety attack bc i didnt wanna go back to him and uhhhhhh yeah life is so fun :D anyway other than that all my irl friends hate me especially R for some reason (sam if you are reading this it was the girl we played with the other day, her roblox display name is tyler.) she just found new friends and ditched me. she looks at me like im disgusting or something, like she doesnt want to deal with me. like im an issue. like, i complemented her GIR hoodie today bc as yall know i LOVE gir, and she just look at me annoyed and went "mhm." like what? sorry? for being nice? and then she ran off to her other friends after that and all of a sudden she is soooo energetic. and soooo happy. and she IGNORES me in hallways (yes literally ignores, i say hello, she stares at me meanly and walks away) and then runs up to her other friends jumping on them and hugging them. keep in mind i have known her since 3rd grade. im probably closer to her then they are. it pisses me off so bad. why them? what do they have that i dont?? whats wrong with me? why arent i enough?? you could argue its because i sometimes "exclude" her by talking to T and M and not her, but its because she just puts her music on and ignores me. and if she isnt ignoring me, she is..i dont even know if i can say this, but she makes 'freaky' jokes a lot around me, which usually i dont mind, i think its funny, but sometimes she grabs me. on my thighs most of the time, and i hate it. i hate physical touch so much. i try to put up with it but i just cant. maybe its because i had several friends that hit me in the past idk..i mean i dont know why else i would hate it other than just a general dislike towards it. which also brings me to an old friend of mine, T (not the T i have been talking about, they have the same name though. ill refer to her by F instead, to avoid confusion.) F was very weird towards me. she often used to uh.... TW FOR SOMETHING I CANNOT MENTION ON SCRATCH (2 letters, A and S not in that order). (yes, this is technically considered that even though i dont think it is) PLEASE LEAVE IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE TO THE TOPIC. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. she would often grab me in a similar way to R, but WAYYY more personal. like inner thighs, chest, etc..and she talked about how much she loved it but swore it was just a joke. she also did it to my friends but i think i was her favorite or something..she once told me "i like you because you dont like me back" and it really creeped me out. i think thats why i dont like physical touch anymore..anyway um whoops PLEASE PLEASE SCRATCH DONT BAN MEEE UGH
