i know i've said this far too many times, but i keep coming back to this stupid website, almost like i'm addicted. this time, i hope i actually keep my word and stay off here. i've been getting really busy, and i've started to feel disconnected with spop ever since i stopped listening to kpop. i don't have much motivation anymore, and school is giving me an insane amount of workload. my GPA courses have also started this year, and i'm in a bunch of extracurriculars. i joined spop in 2023, and it was my entire life and childhood. i do love every single person i've met on here, and spop really shaped who i am today. i'm not in a bunch of groups, so i'll continue lines for them. for pledis entertainment, i'm not shutting it down, but i'll be on a temporary break. but as far as this account goes, i'm leaving. i do love to sing, but i seriously feel like scratch only drains me. you can say i'm not unpopular, but i feel like my efforts aren't valued whatsoever. but, i do have two projects to finish before i leave. one will be a cover album, and one will be the rest of my original album. i'm not going to leave them halfway done. i don't feel connected to this community anymore, but i do love you guys. truly. (platonically, of course). three years was a long time. and i don't regret it. i feel like crying now and i've felt like crying every time i thought of scratch. everything feels so off and weird, and i can't get myself to get motivation to continue on here. i feel like i'm annoying to other people and i feel so demoralized. it's not like anyone has said anything to me, but i feel like none of this matters anymore. this is bittersweet in my eyes, but some irritating part inside of me says that nobody will care and people would think "gosh, about time she left!" but i know some people would care but i feel like it doesn't really matter. i feel like I DON'T really matter to the community. i mean, what did i even do? i feel worthless tbh and not acknowledged whatsoever. yeah, stars for irene. stars but nothing's happening. stars but i'm still ignored and underappreciated. maybe i'm just spoiled. what have i done to deserve more than other people do? i'm sorry for my venting. some of my friend notes are below. i promise they're still a work in progress, i'm not done AT ALL, so don't feel sad if you're not on here, i'll most likely add you when i have time. with love, irene
friend notes: (not in any specific order of importance) rubie (@elunarie): ilysm. like GENUINELY, since 2024, you've been one of my FAVORITE PEOPLE on here. ik you were closer to my sister but we were still close (right??) your songs are GORGEOUS and so is your voice!! keep making music and IWMYSM twin <3 thank you for being a member of blnk ml! I HOPE YOU MAKE IT BIG ONE DAY, I'LL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU ‼️ LETS STAY IN TOUCH ^^ shuyu (): i can't fit into words how much you mean to me. you're always so supportive and kind and you're SO TALENTED omds .....anyways tysm for being a member of blnk as well, and keep singing ^^ ILYSMM MY ACE TWIN ‼️ i wont ever forget abt goatshuyu... lia (): LIAAAA MY GOAT iwmysm you're genuinely my absolute GOAT like since iris ahem....AND YOU'RE SO GOOD AT EVERYTHING EVEN DRAWING i aspire to be like peaklia.....i hope your pillows are cold tonight heh <3 LIVE LAUGH LOVE LIAA mimi (): CMON YOU'RE LITERALLY SO PEAK...like you gave me sm confidence tbh especially when you commented on my harleys in hawaii cover lmao...i will miss you sm twin and ILYILYILY your voice is so cute and good omds please save some talent for the rest of us loll but anyways i wish you the best in life ^^ thea (): you're my icon tbh.......like ilysm. ILYSM!! i hope you get famous but dont forget us when you go viral...always remember your roots twin /sillyofc but ANYWAYS HOW DO YOU MAKE SUCH PEAK SONGS and your voice makes me so happy i love your tone but i also cant believe someone as peak as you would ever accept an invite to my friend studio?? wow.....BUT PLEASE MAKE MORE MUSIC AHHHHHH luka/ayame/karu () MY HUZZ MY GOAT MY NONCHALANT BADDIE ILYSM...please continue making peak covers and being peak...and YOU'RE MY FAVORITE PERSON IN SO MANY WAYS like i connect to you on a spiritual level you don't even know i genuinely think you're the best ...i can't even explain it in words ILYSM ILYSM ILYSM ILYSM ILYSM ILYSM (platonically ofcofc) YOUR VOICE IS SO GOATED TOO LIKE OML AND SO IS YOUR STYLE WE LOVE VKEI <33 iwmysm and lets stay in touch on bl ^^ emily: sorry i forgot yr user twin and im too lazy to exit this project SIGH but IWMYSM even though ik you left too...but ILYY <3 i will miss talking abt blue lock w/ you.......GOSH IM SOBBING EMILY YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME I'D GIVE THE WORLD TO YOU AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS IT...i wont ever forget how nice and peak you were like emily....I LOVE YOU SM DONT EVER FORGET THAT‼️ YOU ARE WORTH IT‼️ izzy (): I LOVE YOU. YOU ARE LITERALLY AN ANGEL LIKE YOU'RE SO SWEET AND YOUR VOICE IS GENUINELY BLESSED LIKE ATP IDEK WHAT TO SAY...one of the best ppl ive met like you BETTER MAKE IT FAR. i wish you the best in life twin and IWMYSM BUT WE CAN TALK IN BL OFC <3 I LOVE TALKING TO YOU AND YOU WERE ALWAYS SO SUPPORTIVE OF ME i legit thought of you as like my older sister i love you that much (platonically) ‼️ sobs i wish i didnt have to leave but its the best for me......cries harper/hana () HARPER. I LOVE YOU. YOU LITERALLY WERE ONE OF MY FIRST FRIENDS ON HERE AND I FEEL LIKE YOU'VE ALWAYS HAD MY BACK. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I LOVE MY IRL FRIENDS. you made me so happy all the time and you still do‼️ your voice is HEAVENLY AND DONT LET ANYONE TELL YOU OTHERWISE!! iwmysm but lets stay in touch <3 kai ( / ): WORK IN PROGRESS FOR THE REST!
