"It’s okay to feel sad when one story ends. It’s also okay to keep remembering it happened." -Mori Calliope when i was 12-13 watching kids graduate from the teen spaces i just joined i had no concept of what it would be like to pass milestones like that, i fell asleep during the ceremonies a couple times. how i wish i could go back to like not having the mental capacity to think much about the past or future. this isnt me calling preteens stupid its just what i remember feeling like. at first i had a good long cry about this cover and the milestone it represents this is a cover but i've included the lyrics here because i feel like they describe my time in spop, i found this song when i was falling out of touch with my animator friends to join it. and it's made me think, it won't be that long before i'll leave behind /everyone/ on this silly website. to the lychees, it might seem like i forget you once i'm gone, but i never will as long as i live. i'm choosing my words carefully because the desc will get too long but anyway please listen to the whole song! LYRICS We'd run right through those nights I'll never find my way back to you Inside this labyrinth of lights There was madness in the meaning Never laughless, we were screaming At the top of our lungs to the numbness This city never died I'll fly, no proof Those heights I'll never find another chance to say "Hey, thanks for saving my life" I was hopeless, it was stinging Running roadless We were singing at the top of our lungs to the numbness This city never died What was the root of it all? Huh I couldn't say Used to jump and then fall Rugged and clichéd Would shrug it off without complaint, not a sound No use in trying to find friends 'Cause in the end nobody sticks around It's when you shoved yourself into a crowded place That you turned around And found yourself in love in outer space Cue the reckless nights, no strings Laughing at our own dreams, haha Just what the hell was so funny? Bark up the wrong tree, stumble Used to falling great heights Amidst a concrete jungle Singing 'cause it felt right We mixed the ennui and troubles Rhyming our discontent And though it's history I can't forget the time that we spent Convinced that this could mean another end Exists between real and pretend A twisted alter-fiction Where I missed my chance, did not ascend And disappearing into the mist of "Never happened" Is the me that I can never befriend I let it go Fade in, fade out This crazy dream Without a direction, floating aimlessly There's nothing left Back there for me Breathe in, but it won't stop the rain from pouring We'd run right through those nights I'll never find my way back to you Inside this labyrinth of lights There was madness in the meaning Never laughless, we were screaming At the top of our lungs to the numbness This city never died But was there ever a soul inside? Chasing fireflies between the soaring high-rises Left a trail behind Defined it, "Wasted time of our lives" A silent singer, overworked and underpaid Thinks an office is a coffin Until off is where you're laid Yet a thought persists An optimist who ought to be afraid Saw the "Nothing wrong" in writing songs Behind the lonely shade Is the world a sadder place Without the words that you conveyed? When the ladder fell And shattered every bar that we had played? Does it matter in the end The sound diminished and decayed And your friends grew tired of fantasy You're wishing they had stayed? You don't get to say, "I miss you" You watched your heroes fade Into the rear-view mirror of the villain you portrayed Stop the pity party, listen You don't get to be dismayed You don't get to be emotional Feel blessed you got it made These the best of years of life Because you chose to make a trade Recollect the days you hoped And you prayed for this What is there to miss? Fade in, fade out This hazy dream Without a direction, roaming aimlessly There's nothing left Back there for me Pretend it's the end of a made-up story I'll fly, no proof Those heights I'll never find another chance to say "Hey, thanks for saving my life" I was hopeless, it was stinging Driving roadless, we were singing At the top of our lungs to the numbness This city never died I'll say goodbye to the soul inside And yet somehow, there was romance In our self-hate, "We've got no chance" In this light maze, but let's hold hands Through the night haze, we'll run so fast 'Til the school chime, 'til the train runs We know it's time, we're the sane ones Waking up now, to the "Real life" Let me daydream, 'til the next night I'll keep waiting I'll keep waiting for you Oh-woah-oh, oh-oh Waking up now, to my real life Let me daydream, 'til the next night Drowning so long, I got older Now the crowd's gone, is it over? Is it over? credits i guess ➥ vocal, mix: me ➥ original: mori calliope
