for anyone wondering, this is based off of my person experience! pretty much this is just who i was in that time- but i added the last part because back then i was SOOOO convinced i was chronically depressed and uh had like every mental illness when i had no idea things could get as bad as they ended up doing..anyway im much more mature now and realize my life isnt THAT bad also this isnt meant to be flame or hate towards the best friend mentioned (i dont even talk to them anymore) they were just a major part of my life at one point so im mentioning them but no attempt at aggression is intended! if they are reading this..hi (the chances of that are like 1 in 10000000000) everything is purposefully censored btw dont try to hunt this person down please they left scratch so respect that and leave them be ok thanks ..anyway i lwk still paint my nails black and wear fingerless gloves tho SHHH.. but tbh i do sometimes wonder if i do have depression bc i have a LOT of symptoms of it but i dont want to self-diagnose, but it would make a lot of weird problems i have make sense
