I don’t know why but I feel like I always caused the problem?? Even small things like something breaking, even if I didn’t touch it. I’m tired of always being the problem and people being mad at me I just want to be nice all my friends are mad at me now and I’m really scared about school The other day I was hanging out with my friend and just started throwing up??? I don’t even now why I didn’t even eat anything weird but I saw the way she looked at me all grossed out I swear I’m always messing up stuff and then I had to get picked up early and now I just feel like I don’t wanna live anymore Every. Single. Night. I just get flashbacks to her face while I was puking on the side of the road nd then I just can’t sleep. What if I had started throwing up in front of my friend who has a fear of throw up? I would’ve upset him so much he wouldn’t even go near me and I can’t stand the feeling of ruining our friendship because he’s one of the closest friends I’ve ever had
Also please don’t worry about me (not that anyone would), but I’m fine srsly
