Hello , its onyx here . scroll down. i have recently been getting a lot of transphobia/homophobia irl. i have been being bullied irl. i have talked to multiple trusted adults , and near to nothing has been done. When I talked to my parents, they said im being overdramatic. even though im basically getting my right to be treated respectfully taken away. The people who were bullying me, they were joking about gender . like in a mean way and THEY KNEW it was making me uncomfortable. they purposefully got my pronouns AND started using my friend's dead-name in a really mean way. I told them i used he/him. and they straight away went to saying i was a she. and because this had happened to me before and it was the same people. they knew my deadname. and they knew i was trans. and when they walked away. i ended up smashing my head repeatedly against my own knee. I'm stressed out bc of this. do you think i want this to happen to me? i know its overdramatic but. it broke my heart to see that people actually think like that. and. my parents got told about my "preferred name" and yeah. i didn't tell them i was trans . but they found out i'm called onyx. and they said "if someone doesn't want to call you that they don't have to." so i basically don't have a name now to others. because they said.. that they don't have to call me by what i prefer which makes me uncomfortable so.... yeah. a lot has been going on with me recently and my mental health is .... low. Walking away doesn't work. they just follow me. Ignoring them makes them scream in my face. Telling them to stop makes it worse. and telling a trusted adult just kind of ... doesn't help they just repeat every single thing i've told them and dont do anything. but thank you for all the support. you guys are so kind i'm just ..... i don't know how to describe it . I just hate people now i guess. i hate myself.
song : bedrott - instrumental by dusky demise im sorry i'm like this all the time. i know it annoys some of you probably.
