long carping irrelevant rant sorry. I'm just a little sad rn. since when was more equal to less since when was there was something better than do your best work since when was good the bare minimum since when was it all wasted potential since when did it change since when did it stop being happy since when did I feel so guilty for being angry since when did family turn into misfortune since when did any of this even happen why did everything have to go wrong for goodness sake I thought we had a 30 minute talk about compromise I thought we had bonded again I thought those afternoons playing with the tennis ball meant something I thought the time we spent together meant something I thought there was a happily ever after I thought you would be there when I cried I thought I could trust you I thought you understood I thought you were my parent but you were never there for me you never showed up you never stayed long enough for it to be real you never did anything that lasted this is a letter you will never read and letter I will never repeat again you broke every strand of trust we ever had between us and you will never fully repair that bridge you burned down
