No speaking today. We will all be speaking. tw: ED, NSSI (?), vomit, "slide down the sewer." Lately I've been feeling like every food is revolting. If it isn't a specific texture or it doesn't look right my gut twists. I've been eating less and I've even vomited before because things tasted disgusting. Food is looking pretty gross now. I chew on gum to keep me from being hungry, but even that taste bad. So I settle for bottle caps, plastic ones. I've also been going through more relapses lately, and I've considered a couple of....things. "pulling a Ivan ending." If you know what I mean. I've been getting less sleep. I don't know what to do.
Wow emotional rollercoaster huh
