ok ik yall don't really care but everyone in my irl friend group has mental problems. I'm happy to help, but when I try to it seems like you all just ignore me. even whenever it comes to not mental problems but just me being a good person, sure sometimes I say mean things but I promise I mean good by it. when I am actively being kind though, that doesn't mean you can take advantage of the soft spot and treat me like trash. I try to solve ALL of the problems that happen in this stupid friend group, I try to make everyone happy, and I always fail because of insane peer pressure and shi and then afterwards I feel worthless because for whatever reason my brain blames itself for EVERY SINGLE THING EVER and I always think I'm wrong and nobody I have ever met has helped with that and I don't know how much longer I can stand this shi. and when I'm trying to be nice, please don't TYPE IN ALL CAPS LIKE THIS AND MAKE ME FEEL BAD BECAUSE I WANTED TO GIVE YOU LENIANCY ON MY PREFERRED NAME (you know who you are). I'm gonna lose it dude, I've only got like 5 irl friends who actually care. (thank you @stormlius, @CheeseEater2012, @flamecat201, @brute-force and 1 other) I'm being destroyed mentally and nobody gaf
