It's been a little while since i've talked about this stuff so let me give you an update on some things. I've been doing good so far, but I still can't sleep because of being an insomniac A little thing to address to some people in my friend group (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE) that I'm not trying to deadname you, I'm just not used to it yet and I prefer to call people by the names I'm familiar with. I'm sorry if I have offended you by deadnaming you, i'm just not familiar with your new name yet. I'm also sorry if I was rude to you, I'm just stressed with school, and other things. I might be a little schizo because when I'm gaming, I keep hearing my parents say my name and when I ask them what, they say they didn't say anything. Its kinda weird. I feel like if I get bad grades or do bad in something I wouldn't get respected, or appreciated... I also feel like my friends don't actually like me, and want me to leave the friend group. I just wish I could be a better friend. I feel like I'm the laughing stock for the friend group, a joke. At this point, I just feel like an object, a magnet for bullies, to keep the others from not getting bullied by taking all the blows for them. I don't feel like i've been included in stuff because of my past actions. "your a chud", "your overweight", "your ugly", "you will never get a girlfriend", THAT IS ALL I HEAR FROM MY FRIENDS! Anyways I'll stop yapping about my trash self, sorry for being selfish. I will stop making these posts if people don't care about my current self and view me as my old self thinking I will never change...
