it was once a friend group, a community, a a place that had people like me. a corner of the internet to call my own. now? it's nothing. a husk of what once was. even through all of the drama, we united together. with every project of departure, it hurt more and more. i miss them. i miss them all. why can i not leave? why am i the singular vessel to not move on? why do i try to stick to this shattered realm of memories? why do i try to keep putting the pieces together? why do i feel like the blame lands on me, when i did nothing wrong? why am i trying to continue? why am i even here
i feel empty. this isn't a notice of my leave. god knows i cant leave, just a complex set of thoughts.
