(The chorus of the song is the reason for choosing it) Chapter 17 - Sunday: *BEEEEEP BEEEEEP* My eyes opened slowly as I recognised my alarm clock. *BEEEEEP BEEEEEEEEP* I wacked it once. *BEEEEEP BEEEEEP* I wacked it harder. *BEEEEEP BEEEEEP* *Don't do this please.* I thought. I grabbed it and wacked as hard as I could and it finally stopped. I lay back down and started at the ceiling. My eyes slowly closed. *NO,* I told myself and opened my eyes again. *Ethan.* *Ethan..... yeah......... What about him?* My brain replied sleepily. *I want to be awake now to get ready and see Ethan.* I said confidently. *Oh......... Right.* My brain stopped working for about five seconds. *........ Okay.* I sat up and straight away started climbing out of my comfy, warm bed. I grabbed something to eat and sat on the lounge, still half asleep. *Why do I feel so calm?* I asked my brain. *You're feeling calm?* My brain answered. *But what about the butterflies in your stomach?* *I was feeling okay.* I glared at the blank TV screen. *Thanks a lot, I was trying to ignore it so it would go away.* *Sorry.* My brain didn't sound at all sorry. *Just checking.* I kept eating my makeshift breakfast until.... *So, um...... What are you going to do today?* My brain asked. *Didn't I literally just say Ethan? I'M GOING TO SEE ETHAN.* I screamed in my head. *So...... You're still doing that?* *OF COURSE.* I slapped the food down next to me and began to pace. *I MISS HIM!!!* *Cool, I might go then, I guess you prolly don't want any logical thinking today.* My brain started to doze off. *Hang on,* I said. *I need a plan!* *Whatever, figure it out yourself.* My brain put an eye mask on. *The plan won't make sense even if I help.* *And why's that hmm?* *BECAUSE IT'S ABOUT A CRUSH. A crush isn't logical, it's unpredictable and confusing.* *Fine, at least can I have a nice outfit before you go?* I began to get ready, the whole time all my thoughts were crazy ideas for what I'd say to Ethan. My logic really had gone. What was I going to do? I definitely wouldn't be telling Ethan I had a crush and then we'd skip off into the sunset that wasn't due to happen until about seven hours later. Wait, seven hours, why was I thinking? Wasn't my logical brain asleep? *Brain? BRAIN! Brian..... Huh?* I giggled. *BRIAN.* *Who's Brian? Have you found another crush?* My brain asked. *You're Brian, dummy.* I smiled, *Are you still awake?* *Ye- No, why would I be awake?* *Cause we're talking. Cause I was thinking, logically.* I grinned, *Are you worried I'll make a complete fool of myself and retreat to my old life again?* *.... Yes.* *Are you gonna stay awake and help me out?* *If talking to Ethan is something you will do no matter how much I'm trying to tell you to not make a mistake in your life again... Yeah, I'll have to.* *Okay! Let's go see Ethan!* *Ethan's not here....* *Oh well, I guess you still can't talk to him.* My brain said. I looked around the church for the hundredth time to find no sign of Ethan or most of his brothers. I had seen one of his brothers, he was in the choir, but I didn't see Ethan. Who I did see was Benjamin though. I decided I'd talk to him, I had been planning to tell him about my crush on Ethan anyway. I enjoyed talking to Ben, I guess I didn't mind too much. I walked out of the church, still hoping above hope that Ethan would appear out of nowhere, but he didn't. I went into the little room and grabbed some biscuits, then snuck to the back wall. I watched as people got drinks at the little snack table, then I noticed Benjamin grab a drink and I waved. He noticed me and started walking over. 'Hey, nice to see you again. How are you?' He said. I smiled, 'Pretty good, how are you?' 'Oh I'm good.' 'Sorry, I seem a bit distant, I was just looking for Ethan, I was hoping to say hi.' I commented as I looked around. 'He's not here though, I didn't see him at Mass.' 'Oh okay.' He nodded. I smiled and looked down, 'Can I tell you a secret?' 'Um, yeah sure.' I took a deep breath and lowered my voice. 'I have a crush on Ethan.' I looked at his face to see his reaction. His calm expression changed to a slight smile, 'Wait you have a crush on....' 'Ethan...... Ethan Davison.' I bit my lip as he grinned. 'Really?' He laughed. 'Yeah and apparently my sister has been shipping us for years.' 'Shipping as in....' 'She thought we looked good together.' I closed my eyes and lifted my head to the ceiling. 'My friends have been crazy since I told them about the crush.' I thought for a second, 'Crazier, they're already crazy.' 'Does he know?' Ben asked, still smiling. 'No, I'm planning to tell him when I visit school next term.' I replied. 'I might talk to him sometime soon.' He said, almost to himself. 'Please don't give anything away!' I dramatically slid down the wall, to the ground. 'Oh no, of course not!' We both laughed.
Joy messaged me once I got home; "You should have come to the school camp, Ethan waz there" I groaned, she sent me this message and was gone. "I couldn't come, cause dad had work and he hadn't made the day a day off, cause he didn't talk to mum about the day." Then I added; "Wait, both you and Ethan were there? *angry scream**kicks walls, chairs and pillows*" I was very angry at my dad, he never talked to my mum about events where I needed him to drive me somewhere, unless she kept asking him over and over. I was also angry that I hadn't pestered him more, I knew what he was like and still expected him to have actually thought about it. Both my friend who I could only interact with in person and my crush who I hadn't seen in several weeks were at the school camp. I could have seen them both at the same place, but I hadn't pestered my dad enough to get there. And this was the last year I'd have had the chance to go to the school camp. I tried to stay calm and instead think about Ethan, I really wanted to test him and see if he did have a crush on me, but I couldn't today, I just had to be patient.
